Just a Thought

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Drama Drama Drama

I have been just readjusting to returning home from vacation. I am just getting back on schedule and coming back into normal life. Already I am starting to plan another vacation with my friends to New York. At first I was really excited and we were just going to go with 4 people, but now they want to bring a 5th, another girl. So it will be 3 girls and 2 guys, I think 5 is a bad number personally but what can I do, they already asked her to come. But this other girl that is coming used to date one of the guys, which I think will make things just awkward. I do not know if they want to get back together, but they both say they do not. Then again why else would he invited her though :S. To be perfectly honest, I would be kind of upset if they did get back together, because they always fight and I know it wouldn't work out. Plus, I do have feelings for this guy, and I know he has feelings for me, but I do not know if anything will come of it. Since we are like really good friends, I do not think he wants to jepordise our friendship incase we ever break up. This situation is very complicated and annoying. It has been frustrating me a lot lately. A lot of people when they first meet us think we are dating or that we should date, but I know this is very immature of me but I just can't tell him how I feel unless he tells me he likes me first. On his msn he has a display picture of us, and we talk for hours everyday, but I just do not know what to think. I wish I could read his mind. Even if we are just meant to be friends I would be cool with that if I knew that's all he wanted. I do really want to tell him that I like him, but I just can't. I wish I could put everything aside and just do it, but it has so many complications if I do. WHAT SHOULD I DO? If I tell him i like him, and he just wants to be friends we may not be too close anymore. So please any advice is helpful. I just don't know if I should move on or wait. Because waiting is just so hard, moving on just may be easier :( I thought all of this drama would be over after high school, but no it still happens to me.... ugh

1 Comments:

  • At 6:06 PM, Blogger Trailady said…

    Oh, how well I remember the TORMENT you are describing. Guys adored me as a friend/sister figure in their lives. They would confide everything in me. This was especially hard when I really cared for them and they were chasing some other girl and wanted me to tell them how to get her attention. Take comfort in the thought that if it's meant to be, it's going to happen and if not then maybe it was never supposed to happen...

     

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