Same Shit, Different Day

I know I shouldn't complain about my life, because I know I have lots of friends and family who care about me. Sometimes though I just wish I could be someone else, somewhere else. Everything is so systematic. I go through each day and see the same people, but sometimes I just wish I couls escape it all. I want to sometimes just pack up life as I know it and move to a different country and cut myself off from everyone and everything. I know I should be thankful for what I have, but sometimes what I have just is fullfilling. SO what if you have a great guy and lots of friends whom you can talk to about anything. That really doesn't make your life that much better. I want excitement, but not excitement as in going to a bar or something. I just want change. I want to experience something new. Everything in my life has always been handed to me. I don't want that. I have lots of material things and I love them, but I also really just want to get rid of all of it. I want everything to be different. I am just so sick and tired of life. I am sick of hearing about other peoples trivial problems and I am just sick of everything. I am not even fully sure of what I want, but all I know is that I need a change, because I am going crazy. I always go on vacations, thinking they will make a difference. But in the long run they don't I just come home and life picks up where it left off. I just sometimes wish my life had some kind of purpose, I do not even know what my purpose is. What am I supposed to make of it all. I am so tired of life. Same shit, different day!