Just a Thought

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Drama Drama Drama

I have been just readjusting to returning home from vacation. I am just getting back on schedule and coming back into normal life. Already I am starting to plan another vacation with my friends to New York. At first I was really excited and we were just going to go with 4 people, but now they want to bring a 5th, another girl. So it will be 3 girls and 2 guys, I think 5 is a bad number personally but what can I do, they already asked her to come. But this other girl that is coming used to date one of the guys, which I think will make things just awkward. I do not know if they want to get back together, but they both say they do not. Then again why else would he invited her though :S. To be perfectly honest, I would be kind of upset if they did get back together, because they always fight and I know it wouldn't work out. Plus, I do have feelings for this guy, and I know he has feelings for me, but I do not know if anything will come of it. Since we are like really good friends, I do not think he wants to jepordise our friendship incase we ever break up. This situation is very complicated and annoying. It has been frustrating me a lot lately. A lot of people when they first meet us think we are dating or that we should date, but I know this is very immature of me but I just can't tell him how I feel unless he tells me he likes me first. On his msn he has a display picture of us, and we talk for hours everyday, but I just do not know what to think. I wish I could read his mind. Even if we are just meant to be friends I would be cool with that if I knew that's all he wanted. I do really want to tell him that I like him, but I just can't. I wish I could put everything aside and just do it, but it has so many complications if I do. WHAT SHOULD I DO? If I tell him i like him, and he just wants to be friends we may not be too close anymore. So please any advice is helpful. I just don't know if I should move on or wait. Because waiting is just so hard, moving on just may be easier :( I thought all of this drama would be over after high school, but no it still happens to me.... ugh